Thursday, November 29, 2007
I guess I had it coming, and should have better prepared myself, but being separated with the lines of communication broken is indescribable. I find myself looking at things and remembering past experiences just laughing to myself, what do they call it...reminiscing? The other day I was stretching to reach for my computer games and I just said to myself "short hands". I wonder what you are doing now? 7 more days to go...I miss you
Dan
5:26 pm
Monday, November 26, 2007
I feel stupid today. I engaged the steering wheel lock without knowing, so I thought the car was spoilt, hence I took the bus to church. Felt so cheated when I got there and my friend was telling me how cars lock their steering wheels. I satisfied my Gelare craving today, finally after months in boring Melbourne. I wish I could say more, but I'm quite tired...not sure why.
Dan
2:50 am
Saturday, November 24, 2007
I'm back!!! And let me just say that Singapore is HOT!!! OK, not like Melbourne weather hasn't been hot the past few days either, but I mean there's the added humidity here. At least there aren't those pesky flies who irritate you by landing on your face and all. Here the flies are just interested in the food, just like the locals. I missed my SCV, now I don't have to follow EPL on the internet but can watch it live on TV!! Being back is good...Wonder how long it'll be before I start to miss Melbourne...though I don't think there'll be much to miss really. Everybody there is going home.
Thanks for all those who prayed for me the last few weeks through my itchy period, the hives are a lot better now, and I think the timing is great too, because I can enjoy all the good food. Time to plan catching up with friends, so you people who haven't seen me for ages call me!!! If I don't call you to catch up doesn't mean I've forgotten you...it just means that I've got so many other people to meet that you got to wait!!
Dan
12:58 pm
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Moving is such a chore. I had to carry 3 boxes by myself, and it was not easy. I surprised myself at the amount of crap I've accumulated over the months. I fly tomorrow for those who do not know and I'm expected to land at 2135hrs. My skin has been getting better so thats good, but its not 100% yet, so I guess I'm not very satisfied yet either.
I was at borders just now and I saw this on a post card with was quite interesting. "Whoever said money can't buy happiness just don't know where to shop."
Dan
10:02 pm
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Packing is such a chore. I've just cleaned out my house, and it seems like I've collected more junk than anything else. Actually I think my books and files is what makes it seem like I've got a lot more stuff to pack. Anyway I'm glad it's done now. Next step is moving.
I went to the doc again today and to my surprise I don't have hives. He said that I might have had hives before, but now its something else. Some hypersensitive skin drug allergy thing...I'm not too sure about the terminology either. Anyway the best part was his advice was to do nothing. Which I think was not the best advice. But since I'm going to back Singapore soon, I'll wait till then. No doubt doing nothing might get be better eventually I think that there has to be a faster way. After the examination I was under the impression that the only reason the spots hadn't gone was because there was still traces of the drug I'm sensitive to in my blood. So how do you get a drug out of your system?
Dan
11:11 pm
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Being sick stinks. Before the holidays came I thought it might become boring because all there was on the agenda to do was to pack. Now that I've fallen sick, packing has been harder. Now I wish I were feeling all better so that I could go over and help you pack. Every night I sleep I tell myself tomorrow when I wake up I'll be better, and every morning I wake up there's no change. It's depressing, and there's nothing to do at home to make holiday life a bit brighter. As much as working toward the holidays was incentive enough, now that the holidays are here, I miss work and study.
Hives Hives go away,
Come again another day.
Little Daniel wants to play,
Hives Hives go away.
Dan
8:16 pm
Sunday, November 18, 2007
The tonsillitis and the hives have been terrible for those who have heard, and for those who have not heard, I've got the tonsillitis and the hives. Probably the most terrible start to summer I've ever had.
The election in Melbourne has been very interesting to follow, and I'm glad I don't have to vote, because it is going to be very difficult, though as a foreign commerce student, I'm hoping the Liberals will win because the track record of Labours interest rates haven't been very good, and well let's face it, high interest rates will probably mean high cross exchange rate between Singapore and Australia.
Thank you for your patient with my hives, and I love you more everyday.
Dan
10:29 pm
Friday, November 16, 2007
The exams are over!! Finally. Now I can rest and relax and enjoy the holidays, though I'm not really looking forward to summer. The heat is just killing me. Literally because I have tonsillitis which is the next thing I'm not happy about. I seem to fall sick when the season changes. It's a terrible feeling for those who have not had tonsillitis before. Pain when swallowing and all. Plus I'm on medication which makes my skin extra sensitive, and now I can't stand in the sun, which is not good, because its stupid summer and all there is is sun. Anyway I'm flying back on the 23rd!!! so I'm looking forward to that. And I've rented 7 DVDs to watch during this holidays, and I've already watched 3. Oh wells..not like I've got anything very important to do now anyway either.
Dan
10:19 pm
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
I'm no scientist, but I do know that when potassium comes into contact with water, or the moisture in the air, it will explode, or something to that effect. A loud bang that everybody within earshot will hear. That's why in the labs they coat potassium with a thin layer of oil so that there's a delay in it's reaction time. Why am I suddenly talking about elements when I hate them?
Chemistry. What do we think of when we hear this word? Labs, chemicals, experiments. When two people click and are in love what do we say they have? Chemistry. Mixing potassium and water creates this reaction an explosion which everyone notices, and thinks is pretty cool. But what happens when potassium and water are left alone? Water, an essential to living. Potassium, left in a test tube, coated with oil, to prevent interaction. Some people go through life never even having heard of potassium, but nobody will die without knowing what water is.
I've been searching for internships in Singapore for the past few days, and have found a few, but it's either been not to my liking, or demands qualifications that I do not have. I hate looking for jobs, I hate having exams late, I hate making people wait, I hate thinking there's nothing else to study, I hate studying the same thing over and over, I hate the feeling of hate.
Dan
10:22 am
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
I'm sure we always ask ourselves at one point why do we go to church? Is it really to encourage each other in Christ, and to worship and praise God, or do we do it because all our friends are there? I guess such answers can only be found deep in our hearts, and no one can really ever know. I used to think it was for friends, and that no matter what people said, friends played some part in our going to church. Making the environment more comfortable, making worship easier. True church hopping is not a good thing, but if we had to change church, would we be held back by being in a group of total strangers or realise that they are fellow brothers and sisters in Christ?
I guess coming to Melbourne has helped me to realise the importance of church. I see many overseas students hold back because they don't feel comfortable, they feel "out casted", and our human nature is quick to place blame on the church. Church people aren't to open, to friendly that's why this happens. And granted that that may be true, the opposite is also true where the people who come don't make an effort to be open or friendly. I think an important to realise when change occurs is that expectations should change as well. Nothing will ever remain the same for too long, and when that change occurs will we complain that we feel "out casted" by our own people because they changed and we didn't or will we learn to let go, and change.
Letting go. So much easier said than done. Yet I know it will prove to be a problem in the future.
Dan
10:40 am
Sunday, November 11, 2007
There's a lot to cover for law on Thursday. A lot to read, cases to memorise, and I've been going through it all for the past two days, and I'm going to finish tomorrow. My point is it's too easy. Work has never been too easy for me. Playing catch up in school in Singapore, and for management last semester, and for finance and accounting this semester. I guess it's partly because law had so many tests during the semester I had to constantly study it, that now when I look back I read something and it's like OK I know this next, and the next thing I know I'm done. I feel like I'm missing something but I know that I am not missing anything. The only problem with stupid law is that the test is so tricky I have to read it very carefully. Oh wells...I think I need to make law harder.
Dan
8:39 pm
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Whenever I daydream,
and daydream I do,
in my secret garden,
I day dream of you.
I day dream of you,
in a faraway land;
embracing me tight
and holding my hand.
Holding my hand,
and touching my face.
Just you and me,
in this peaceful place.
In this peaceful place,
a pristine river flows.
Where the unicorns run,
a breeze always blows.
A breeze always blows
and sings of a song;
our love in a place
where you're never gone.
Where you're never gone
is as it would seem,
from dusk until dawn,
whenever I daydream.
And whenever I daydream,
and daydream I do,
in my secret garden,
I day dream of you.
-Cassie McNair-
Dan
5:57 pm
Thursday, November 08, 2007
The worst is over!! OK it wasn't exactly the worst. I actually felt quite good after the paper. I feel like a weight has been lifted off me. Strangely enough, after the paper I felt like I had nothing to do. The last month or so has been study study study, now that I don't have to study so much I don't know what else I'm going to do. Guess I got to plan my holidays. I'm going to get a shock after I graduate...no more study after that. I need to air my apartment.
Dan
10:24 pm
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
Two down two to go!! This exam has been quite pleasant thus far, but that's because the easy papers have been the first to go. Thursday will prove to be the toughest of the four, and once that's out of the way it's goodbye accounting!!
Today was finance, and I think I'm quite pleased with how I did for the paper. I arrived just in time for the paper, and started to flip through the paper when I had the sudden urge to go to the toilet. I decided I should finish the paper first then go to the toilet because then I won't have to rush the end of the paper, if I had to. Half way through the paper, the urge became stronger, and I started to shake my legs, tap my fingers, anything to control the urge. I needed to finish the paper, and I would kill myself if I went and left myself without enough time for the paper, the toilet would still be there after the paper. My mind started to wonder, why was I so urgent? Then I realised it was because I had downed half a bottle of water before the paper, and it's those 1.5litre bottles kind, and I was still drinking from the bottle I brought into the exam hall. My throat was dry, I needed the water. So I kept it in, and decided to go after the paper. When the paper ended everyone stood up, and I saw a lot of people going to the toilet too, so I figured I might as well go home and use my own toilet. Half way home, the urge became too strong. Clearly I had underestimated the power of my bladder, and I started to walk funny, and I couldn't walk too fast either because well...it might leak!! I was desperate. To cut the story short I did eventually make it home, but lesson learnt. Do not do a water parade just before an exam.
Dan
1:32 am
Monday, November 05, 2007
One down, three to go. It was weird going to the exam hall today. Not a feeling of fear, or anxiety because I knew there was nothing that they could ask that I did not know. It was an settling feeling of calmness, relaxed, chilled. I'm not saying it was bad, but it was new. Perhaps last semester was a bit more stressed because I did not know what to expect, or the whole procedure. Makes me wonder how next semesters exams will feel like. But that's still a long way away.
Finance filled my head today after econs. I was in town, and I walked past a HSBC bank, and the first thing that came to my mind was that this is a subsidiary of a foreign bank because there was an ATM, meaning that it dealt in the retail side of the financial market, accepting deposits and making loans as it's primary purpose, and not allowed to participate in the wholesale side of the market. Then I thought what if HSBC had a subsidiary and a branch set up in Australia. Of course being a foreign bank it won't be the largest participant in the market, but it would definitely help the companies image to be seen everywhere.
I miss being an innocent consumer.
Dan
9:03 pm
Saturday, November 03, 2007
Confidence is better now. I feel like I should be able to achieve the targeted goals. The SWOT Vac has proved useful in giving time to do all the past year papers, and making the mistakes. I guess it was a morale booster doing the papers and not having to refer back to the textbook very often, which showed that my initial revision was quite good. The last few days however, has been a road back to the low confidence period. Sitting at the tables going through the same questions over and over, I get the feeling like I know everything, yet I also know that it is impossible to know everything as much as we would like to believe so, we are human after all. The problem is, I don't know what I don't know. I just hope the lecturer doesn't know what I do not know so that he will only question us on what we know, which is a lot.
Weather has been a damper the last few days with rain the past few nights. Rain is such a depressing thing, it makes everything seem so dark and gloomy, like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. At least when I'm in my apartment I don't know that it's raining because I can't hear the rain, and because I face the inside of the building so I don't really see it either. But Rach's place is windows all over, with a great view overlooking the city, and when it rains...well it's nothing like my apartment.
One more week and the stress level will turned down a notch. I can't wait. It marks the end of accounting, and law!!!
Dan
6:55 pm