Tuesday, October 02, 2007
I'm so frustrated with my finance assignment. I feel anger building up inside me, yet I do not show it physically because there's no one to rant to, and no one who actually understands. Is this healthy? I want to let it all out. I want to break something. But nothing I seem to do is enough. I collate websites, I research books, and yet I have nothing. I have to create something out of nothing, and I know that next year, or the year after that, I'll learn it, and curse again why I was tested on something beyond my level. Then I know that being in university is not the same. We're not spoon fed, we're expected to self-learn. But how are we supposed to learn if our questions are not being answered by our lecturer!! Damn German.
Now I'm in the middle of my finance assignment and I know its crap. The song yellow by coldplay repeats constantly in my head, and it seems to be what is helping me keep my cool before I blow some heat onto some unfortunate inanimate object. Perhaps its the pressure, I want to revise!!! I want to understand!!! But I can't. WHY?? Because of the stupid Australian share market!! Stupid IPOs. Stupid websites which are so complicated. But I'm throwing in the towel just yet because I know somewhere inside me that after this storm I'll be able to ride the other.
All the frustration, all the anger, all the energy, and I have to SIT here and type this essay because during the holidays some German was too lazy, or self arrogant to give out hints for the essay. If there's even such a thing as self-arrogant.
In conclusion, I'm pissed.
Dan
11:22 pm