In Job31, he puts forth a "if-then" argument with God, a cause and effect chain of events. That was one of the things highlighted during the sermon on Sunday. I found this fascinating because in our lives now, we always do that with God as well. If He gives us the good grades, we will go to church more often, If he helps us with our assignments, we will do our quiet time more often. When we are going through trials, we question, God where have we gone wrong to deserve such misfortune? I think there is nothing wrong with conditional promises with God, but I think the mistake lies when we restrict God to just those few aspects of our lives, because He wants to be apart of everything in our lives. But do we let Him?
The following story is fictional, and any resemblance to any real life situations is purely coincidental.
"He ran through his thoughts in the shower. It was the first time he was going to do this, and fear was toying with his mind. He could not help but think of all the possible scenarios, strangely they were all negative. He turned the water a bit warmer, as he stood under the shower head picturing it in his mind. Placing one hand on hers, the sun reflecting in her eyes. I like you. Then his mind went blank, for imagining her response was too hard for him. He got out of the shower, and prepared to leave. It was now. He walked down to her apartment.
She rose out of bed to see the sun high in the sky. It was a bright beautiful day, and it felt like it was going to get better. She let the water run all over her body for awhile in the shower, thinking about what they would do when they met. He should be on his way now. She took her time to get dressed as she got out of the shower, he would knock when he arrived anyway. Her thoughts were disturbed by the siren of an ambulance as she combed her hair. It was the fourth time this week, couldn't people be more careful she thought. It was almost time and he still had not arrived, perhaps he was waiting downstairs.
As she reached the lobby of the building she saw a crowd gathering outside, and the ambulance at the junction. Curiosity filled her, and she needed to know what had happened. Squeezing her way through the crowd was messing up her hair, but she was so close now, then her heart sank. His body on the road, with the tram and cars all piled up around. Time froze as she starred at his lifeless body. Flowers, and card in his hands, she could not believe the sight that was before her. She ran forward, and sobbed over his motionless body, hoping her tears would bring him back to life, just like it had cured him of his back pain, and his pimples. She pulled the card from his grip hoping to read the last few words from him.
The past week has been the most exciting week of my life, and I would not trade it for anything in this world. Being with you erases my worries, and makes life seem so clear and definite. But I don't want that feeling to last a few moments but a lifetime. I don't want my worries to come back, but to disappear forever. I don't want my mundane life, but a life of excitement with you. What I'm trying to say is...
He had left the last three words to be said in person. It was perfect, as he did not know if he would have the courage to say it after expressing his feelings. It was 11.55am! He was late!!
