Sunday, September 02, 2007
Are we constrained by our own human understanding that we do not understand God? Sometimes I feel that our lives are so hectic, that we have been too influenced by the media, that we set our expectations by the world. We have issues in life, we turn to friends. We are sick, we attend school, and skip church. We are stressed, we hit the pubs, and listen to jazz bands. Then when things are not going our way we question God why? Maybe it's just me, maybe no one else does it. In the end I think it all boils down to one question: How important is it to us to live righteous lives?
"His heart was heavy, and his mind was burdened with a single thought. He needed to get it off his chest, but how was he going to find the words to express how he really felt without conveying the wrong idea? It felt so hard, opening his heart, his feelings, his emotions to someone else. Being totally honest to the one who mattered most to him. It was strange, yet wonderful.
They sat like two fools sitting on a bench in the cold, his arm around her, while she sipped her cold coffee. His mind was tired, and thinking of the words to express his burden was just too much. Perhaps telling the truth, and how he felt was the way to go. His heart skipped a beat as he opened his mouth to begin his request, ".......I don't want this to end." But that was not enough to express how he felt.
I treasure what we have, and I want it to be deep and meaningful. History is repeating itself for me, and I fear what will come after. Communication and commitment are important for sustenance, and though they are new to me, you can be sure that I will work to perfect them both. Paranoia fills my mind, and fear grips my heart, but when I hold you close, and learn to commit it to the Lord, I can only pray that peace will takeover and help me let go. Do you understand?
Dan
10:31 pm
