I'm hurting. Is it worth it? I tell myself that I know what the end result will be. I speculate, and the more I think about it, the more I start to think that it is really true. She has absolutely no idea. And then I spring this thing on her. The odds aren't very good I must say. And judging from past experiences, gradually is always the best option, but I tried. I really did. But she was busy. And now she's so free...Why am I not seizing the opportunity? Why is it that I always put myself down in my head. What have I got to lose? I always ask myself that. And that is the very question I ask myself too before I do my StE. What have I got to lose?? Then I'm remembered by what do I have to gain? Riches in heaven. And what happens if this person decides not to believe?? I'll still have my riches in heaven, because I did my part and planted the seed. But what do I have to gain now? Everything my physical heart desires. And what do I have to lose? Everything my physical heart desires. Then you tell me not to worry about the physical and to focus on the spiritual, but I tell you that if that were true, then why did God not just give us one heart to look after? He gave us a physical body, a physical mind, and a physical heart to use, and He entrusted us the duty to look after our own body. If we are hungry, we eat. If we are tired, we sleep. If we long for love?

2 more days till I find out what the answer will be. I learnt in a time management lecture at YFC, that we should live life according to the opportunities in our life, rather than by the deadlines we have to meet. Then I wonder, what if opportunities don't present themselves? What if the opportunities have to be created? I mean, that is the whole idea behind StE isn't it? We go to the streets to create that opportunity to meet. Tomorrow, I have the chance to create an opportunity. Yet here I am typing to you, telling you how I feel, rather than typing an sms to meet you telling you I want to create an opportunity. Will you accept? please??