I sat in at James's EBS session today, and I wondered when I would hold mine. Technically I would be having one tomorrow with Alvin, but it's Alvin, I think he's more interested in solving his problems, than he is with learning about the Bible. Somehow I feel it's a discouragement to help him, because I've been trying for years to no avail. Some people tell me that I cannot help everyone, and that sometimes time is what they need to realise that their problems are beyond any human help. Others tell me that time is not the solution, because if Jesus comes back tomorrow how would you feel? But all my effort is not yielding any results!! Not with Alvin, not with the hopeful contacts I've made. Now I feel like my time at ProjectServe is not productive at all because I've not made as much "progress" as some of the other servants. How I find the strength and motivation to go to work everyday knowing that I've not saved a life condemned for hell, I don't know. This is so demoralising.